Desires Of The Heart
The truth is we desire many things in our lives. Things which sometimes we don’t need but this doesn’t stop us from wanting them. Whether it be a new car, home or other things our hearts carry the fleshly desire of material objects.
Desire vs. Need
Needs are very basic, and should be easy to recognize. Strip your existence down until it is naked, and you will see that what you need is not very complicated.
Now think about what you really want out of life. Consider how you want to be remembered after you are gone. Now compare those things with your needs and wants. Can you strike a compromise between how you want to live and those things you desire? This is a crucial step towards finding balance in your life.
It is unrealistic to try to live without any desires. The problem arises when your desires become your needs. Suddenly your desires put you into a state of desperation, and a desperate person is not a reasonable person, a rational person, or a calm person.
Wants, or desires, are things we would like to have but they do not sustain us. When you are prioritizing your life, first give your attention to those things that ensure your existence, your happiness, and your well-being.
Now, with this all said where does GOD fit into this equation?
Here’s my truth. In the past several years I have learned the hard way what I want and need are. With medical issues which required many surgeries I didn’t have a choice but to take care of them. I was left with the basics in one’s life and having to learn how to read, write and walk and talk again. Yes, tis true…this is no exaggeration. My spine was so severely damage that it had also damaged my brain stem which affected my cognitive and motor skills.
This led me to where I am now! I love where I am now. Wouldn’t change it for anything! I serve GOD in my work and try my best to walk daily in HIS Word.
This brought me to finally having my TMJS attended to. This is something I have been dealing with since my early 20’s. It’s called Temporomandibular Joint Syndrome which involves the jaw and it’s flexibility. It enables or disables your ability to move your jaw, up and down, and side to side and enables you to chew, talk, and yawn. The problem with this is it literally grinds your teeth down to nothing as well. You see, all these years it’s been doing just that and with all these other medical issues out of the way I was finally able to take care of it.
My teeth were ruined, and my jaw badly damaged. In fact is it locks in place and does not allow me to close my mouth. So, three weeks ago, I finally had all my teeth removed. They were working in unison (jaw & teeth) causing me such pain and agony. So, to finally be rid of the teeth was such a relief. The problem is, now I have no teeth and cannot eat (can’t close my mouth). So, I went on a juicing diet and got the doc’s okay to do so while the oral surgeon works on my TMJ. The end result is injections in my jaw and surgery, possibly even breaking my jaw in order to repair it. Sounds crazy huh! Well, I’m not a fan of either but have no choice.
Admitting to this is not hard but the next part even harder. I go through the local county hospital for medical treatment because the good old government won’t give me disability even after 2 neck fusions and 4 surgeries on my fingers, hands and elbow. So, the county hospital allowed me to have all the surgeries at very little cost but the dental program there is different for some reason and I had to sign a contract which said I couldn’t get my dentures unless I paid $800, up front! To some, this may not seem like a lot of money but to my spouse and I, this is a considerable amount of money. So, I began saving up in the last two weeks. Considering my hand problems, I decided to sell my guitar (I cannot play anymore, although I love to…because of pain). Also doing odd jobs has allowed me to save up more on the side as well. I’m close to $250! Wow! For me, that’s amazing considering I can’t work.
I told GOD, I know you will provide a way. I just know it!
Today, I had someone offer to give me the total amount as a loan with no time limit to repay. We are very good friends and I refused but they demanded that I take the money. I am in shock because this happened no more than a few hours ago.
I sat back on my couch and began realizing how GOOD that GOD is to me. I never ask for much at all. In fact I would rather ask for someone else rather that myself.
I am so humbled by GOD’S love for me and so privileged to do HIS work that I rarely feel the need to ask for anything. I am totally honest.
But, when I do….HE’S ALWAYS there for me! ALWAYS. I trust in HIM completely and don’t take for granted the love HE has for me. I often cry at the thought of the capacity of HIS love for me. I am overwhelmed, so overwhelmed by HIS mercy and love.
So, even before I need it, because the swelling from all the teeth extractions has not gone down, even before I have made the appointment for the Dentist….GOD has given me what I need!
I’m reading a book called, “A Love Worth Giving” by Max Lucado. It breaks down the Scripture of 1 Corinthians 13:4-13 about Love is patient, love is kind…etc. It’s such a blessing. In it Max points out that GOD may not give us the desires of our heart, but HE gives us the things we need. This is the honest truth.
So, when your to the point where your at your wits end and you don’t know what your going to do. DON’T FRET. Trust in GOD. Give HIM the benefit of the doubt that HE knows EXACTLY what you need, because HE does!
And more importantly HE loves you enough to give you what you NEED.
So my sum total of the equation is; GOD is everything we need!