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Coming from a childhood of poverty, I knew there will be those who look down on me, and it seemed like I was always trying to get people’s approval. And being a product of a broken marriage left me always feeling insecure. I guess you could have called me, ‘ragamuffin’.
Time passed and I ended up with a broken relationships of my own, with children by my side. Then came a period where I couldn’t have felt more complete, with children and a new husband but deep down I knew there was still a void. Was it the lack of security as a child? Was the having little to eat or wear? No. It may have been rough and at times I felt so alone, but it made me into the woman that I am.
Throughout my life there have been many times where light and darkness clashed in front of me but never so much as now. You would think getting older would make life easier, but the change I made in my life made it the opposite. It’s the hardest it’s ever been. You see, I went against the grain.
There are many who aren’t ashamed to tell me that I’m broken and no where near perfect. It’s battle in my daily walk to keep my head up high. There’s those who want to keep me down and think that’s where I deserve to be.
You see, when I was young, no matter how many people were around me, I always felt alone. And now that I’m nowhere close to those days, sometimes it feels the same in this ragged old world. But, I must keep reminding myself that this is how the world wants me to feel…because their lost.
You see, I changed. Some don’t like it, others never will. This is because my thoughts and actions are different now. It makes some uncomfortable to be around me, others just pretend that they do. I’ve been told I’m not the same and I acknowledge this, no doubt.
Since this change, I’ve lost friends, but you see those come and go. It’s the family that I’ve lost that made my heart skip a beat. Try as I may…pushing them in closer as they pulled away.
I’ve been called crazy, and plain nuts…by both friends and family. Since the change I’ve come to realize that many of those who I love has let their love grow cold. Because of my walk, it’s left me with few I can say stand at my side.
There are many kinds of love. A love of a mother for her child, a friend who’s always there. A lesson learned from a loving teacher and even a stranger can give you love. But throughout all this craziness, I call life…there’s only One that is unconditional. There’s only One I can count on to have my back. There’s only One that will never take down to me, or think I need a straight-jacket. There’s only One who gives me peace and security and He’s my Father!
So, you can trip my step as I walk by, but I will get up. You can tell me that no matter what I do, our relationship will never improve or last. You can tell me that I’ve changed and my views are not what the world expects.
For you see, I’m a ragamuffin Believer. For justification by grace through faith means that I know myself accepted by God as I am. I’m not perfect, yet He loves me anyway. I am tattered and beat down maybe I’ve fallen a time or two but Jesus Christ always picks me up.
For no matter how hard this life beats me down, and the world tries to rip me apart…you can take my life but you can’t have my soul because it belongs to Jesus Christ. And Jesus Christ lost His life for mine, and yours too…and one day I may lose my life for Him. But, it would be an honor…because this world is not my home.
Matthew 5: (KJV)
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.
John 15: (KJV)
2 Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit.
8 If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.
19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.
20 Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.
21 But all these things will they do unto you for my name’s sake, because they know not him that sent me.
Luke 14: (KJV)
33 So likewise, whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple.
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